Elves, undead, and trolls, oh my!

It is always something, isn't it.

Haven't really been bothering to write. Plenty to write about, but no urge, really. Well. Until now, anyway. Not sure if Teag has ever turned off his hearthstone so quickly. Definitely quite certain I've never come home to him finishing off an entire bottle of wine. Or so I assume, from how he was acting. Not sure how to approach the subject, really. He doesn't talk much about his father, which is who I gather the man is. Think it's safe to assume they aren't on good terms, however.

.. Just a guess.

I was hoping that bit of happiness over Jeria and Rid's wedding would last a little longer.. I've pretty much been in a good mood since I got back to Dalaran, and I half worry if it's going to bother him. .. May want to tone it down, I suppose.

Have the feeling this is all going to end up unpleasant somewhere along the line.


On a lighter note, the wedding went off without any real issue, I think. Hopefully the two stay together.

I had thought I could be certain that Teaghue was not the holiday type, but apparently I was very wrong indeed. His enthusiasm over Hallows End is.. surprising. Not in a terribly bad way, though. It's good to see him happy over something besides convincing me to do horrible things in shops. He seems a bit more like himself, maybe even a bit better than before everything. I suppose ones favorite holiday will do that.

As for me, .. feeling a little better. In a way. Doesn't feel like I'm trying to run through deep water when thinking, but I still seem to tire out rather easily. Though not as badly as before, thankfully.

Think I may try to work on my casting next time Teaghue is out and about. I'd rather he not be here, should it prove pointless. I feel shamed enough without a spectator. Doing a bit of work might not be a bad idea--not out in the field, of course, as I imagine Jeria might kill me, but my recruitment duties aren't exactly difficult.

Still not sure how we didn't get arrested. Not regretting it, though.

Stumbled across an.. event, last evening. More or less. In the ruins of the city, a group was gathered to celebrate Hallows End. A small gathering, but it was.. nice. In a way. I'm not sure what my thoughts on it really are. I ended up only speaking with one woman, who I forgot to introduce myself to. Her name was Miss Day, I believe. She may have been the one to call me 'Spooky' as I was headed off, but my thoughts were wandering a bit by then.

I suppose I should get out more often. All work and no play, after all. But there's so much to be done, I almost feel guilty taking time out to indulge myself and enjoy the company of others, even if I don't end up speaking terribly much. It's interesting enough to just watch and listen, though it's technically what I do for work.

I suppose there are a few lessons to be learned from all this.

( This is gonna be a long one. )

My head hurts.

(Backdated, should've been up a day or two ago!)

I can't remember the last time I've felt this tired. But.. Teag's back at home, he's even moving around a bit. Feeling beyond relieved to be back, to not have to look around constantly, or avoid the windows.. I've done it a few times, had to kick myself and remember. It's done.


Sort of.

I still have to fix this. All of this- Teag's.. problems, his questions- it's my fault he doesn't have answers, I know that. He says it's okay, that I didn't have much choice.. that's a lie. He knows it, I know it, anyone I've told knows it. It's not okay.

But I can fix this. I know I can. I'm almost there, I can tell. This will work. I know it.

One day, he's going to get sick because he was awake with me instead of sleeping and resting like a normal person. And on that day, I will feel terribly guilty. For now, though, I don't really have any complaints.

Cookout went.. well, I think. Admittedly tuned out a bit of it like I normally do, but I think I managed to pay attention enough to at least be sociable. Took Yonu- I was worried he might cause a bit of trouble, especially with.. I think it's Sellin who has the large worg, but nothing went awry. Thankfully.

Still a bit surprised at Rid's request- I'd assume he would've asked Matojo or.. someone. But, it doesn't really matter what I expected, I told him I would. I'll have to figure out exactly what I'm supposed to do.. never really been in this position. I'm quite happy for the two of them, and would prefer not to mess this situation up in any way.

I feel like a bloody five year old afraid of what might be in their closet.

Except that I know there's something lurking about- not only that, but he's been doing so for.. gods only know how long. I'm not even sure.

Thinking Teaghue might be losing it had me worried, but now.. I don't know. I suppose if Lynel really wanted me dead he could've just cut me down in the street, even if it would've gotten him a fair bit of attention. .. As much as it frustrates me to admit it, he was right. I don't really have any right to tell him to leave, or anything of the sort. Hellfires, he probably knew Teag before I was even born, though I can't be certain..

.. That makes me feel even more like a stupid child. Thinking back, that's about what I acted like, too. Thought I was doing so much better with my temper- shows what I know.

It's a good thing Teaghue is used to me being close by while sleeping, or he might think me sticking myself to his side at night was odd.

I probably could've gone and pretended that conversation didn't happen, but I suppose that isn't particularly mature, now is it. The more I think about it, the more I wish I'd just outright said no. I'm not sure how he got that entire idea in his head anyway.

Spoke with Jeria about it, because just sitting and thinking of it on my own was making me restless. She suggested a few things I want to talk to Teag about.. but perhaps when he seems a bit steadier. She mentioned a few other things it could possibly be besides edging on insanity, which I would prefer it not be.

Think I'll.. try to keep an eye out. I don't usually pay much attention to things when out walking or when I glance out a window, but maybe I should.

I think I may have told Jeria a little more than she wanted to know, but I suppose it happens. It did make me think of something, though. That one time was the only occasion that I can remember where that shadow form of his was there during sex, I wonder i

My mind wanders too easily. "A lot to offer", he says. Right. Constant perversion is about all I've got going for me. I doubt anyone else would be able to stand it.

Right. So. Things to talk about. Blunt questions usually work for these things with him, hopefully it'll be alr

( The ink on the page rather suddenly smears, and the paper itself is crumpled a bit as if there was some sort of commotion. The last bit is scrawled a bit messily. )

So this chair is no longer out of bounds for the pup. Quite the jumper, this one.

Today was.. odd. I was out at the tournament grounds and saw some.. thing. A large bug, almost like a silithid, but it was white and.. I don't even know. I saw it twice, both times it just went under a tent and vanished from sight. I hung around trying to figure out where it'd gone, but the only section I would've been able to see under the tent well has a few giant jormungars being kept nearby. I'd rather not get eaten while trying to figure out if I imagined something or not.

Decided it would be better just to come home- think it was just something I thought I saw. I've never even heard of white silithid..

Anyhow. I ended up having to bring those pups back to the flat. Most of them went off to Orgrimmar just fine, but they didn't want the small one. So.. Teaghue is letting me keep it, for now. It's still decently small, but apparently it was at least a bit sick.. I'm not sure how big it'll get, considering the size of its feet at the moment.. large, indeed.

Losing track of my books now that I have more, ugh. The journal actually looks a bit like one of my prayer books. .. But a different color, and a good deal lighter. So I guess they're actually nothing alike.

The bad side to forgetting the book for a while is that I lose track of things to ramble about. .. Well. I have plenty to go on about, but I think most of it is better kept in my head. Though, I'm not sure how I feel about the fact that Teaghue apparently has more stamina than I do. Not surprising, all things considered, but still.

Have to go pick up new armor in a day or two. It's.. not exactly what I'd imagine a priest wearing. It has a mask, so maybe I'll be able to get away with not talking with less trouble.



.. Puppies. How am I going to explain this. I can't even remember why I lied about it in the first place-- it's not like I'm having them. What the nether is wrong with me.

Ugh. I haven't had a black eye this obvious since I was a kid. Not exactly flattering. Probably for the better that I don't have work for a few days, it'll give it time to fade. I should be able to avoid people long enough for it to just look like I ran into something. Not terribly unlikely.

I'm not even sure what to think, right about now. I haven't even asked Teag exactly what happened, I've just.. been so worried, and relieved that he's alright. It hadn't even come to mind before now.

I can't remember the last time I was actually shaking when trying to heal someone.

I'm half afraid to ask what they might've said to him. So many things I need to sort out, but for now.. I think I'll just go lay down again.

The replacement worg they gave me while Nadja is.. occupied, is more energetic that I thought possible for a creature its size. It's also quite the escape artist. It's been sitting outside the door every time I've gone outside so far. I'm not sure if the creature is simply that good, or if I'm just that terrible at knots.

I'm not sure how I'm going to explain things to Teag, later. I've already lied, though not technically. It depends on your view of 'illness', really.

.. Suppose I'll just make it up as I go along.

He's taken a bit of a.. student. Teag, that is. Could be interesting. Hopefully not disastrous. He says she's jumpy, hopefully not too much. I wonder if I should meet her so I'll know who to heal right off the bat?

... I'm sure it'll be fine.

(( STORY TIME. Apologies to Harbs, who might see this in two places.

Notes for: murder, wretched, and uh.. pessimism. Set a while after the Third War. ))

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Started to scribble things down last night and then realized I don't put thoughts down too well when I've had a decent bit to drink. Or I do, but they're not very pleasant.

( He goes on about life, love, and the finely tuned art of being a jerk. )

Blonds always were a weak point of mine. It's something that's gotten me into more than a bit of trouble in the past, really. Male or female, the ones I've gotten the biggest headaches from were always blond.

.. Not saying it wasn't worth it, though. Because it always was. .. Except for that one girl. Nails like talons, I swear. I've still got scars from that night. I've got scars from other people as well, but that's one of the most noticeable. I can't help but think she did it on purpose.

I'm not thinking of anything of course, he's just a random doctor and I consider myself a gentleman, thank you very much. Simply looking at.. patterns, in my history. Yes.

Hopefully didn't infect Thaelen with whatever is festering in my lungs. That hug was awkward. But, he's an awkward kid, so I suppose that makes sense.

Feels like I'm running an inn.

Despite the horribly stupid question, I think that could've gone worse. Hellfires, 'discussions' with Daz used to end up with both of us bruised and usually bleeding, so I'm not complaining.

I'm not sure what to think, really. It doesn't seem likely that Teag will suddenly take up bloodthistle again and go off randomly, so I don't see a reason to be worried. I think it's something I'll try to avoid bringing up again, though.

.. If he ever does eventually say it, I hope we're not in public at the time because I may have to jump him.

Apparently, Jeria and Ridelas are going to get married. I was.. surprised, to say the least. Not because it's unlikely, but because I mentioned marriage to Jeria something near a week before and she didn't say anything. Hrm.

I didn't think my question was that horrible. Pregnancy was why my parents were married, after all. .. Though I suppose they are a shining example of bad decisions in life. After having two children isn't really the best time to decide you don't want to be a parent.

Eldride wears on my nerves, I've found. Being around her is just worrying.

I suppose "nancing with the fairies", or whatever it was exactly that she said, isn't the worst thing it's been called.

It's probably a bad idea to plan to stay in all day when you have a meeting with a group of augurs in the evening. The result was a lot of cursing and I believe I stole one of Teags robes, because I couldn't find mine. I'm not sure how he can actually hide things while I'm right there, but I suppose that's beside the point.

So.

- Gharina crashed out in Icecrown, was almost embalmed, and was moved to Dalaran last night.
- Had a thought about what happened and told myself all week not to bring it up because it was paranoid. Succeeded until the meeting earlier, then it was like word vomit. It sounded as crazy out loud as it did in my head.
- Need to nudge Jeria into not being so reluctant to speak at those meetings. I was tempted to look for a string I needed to pull.
- I really like living somewhere that isn't horribly out of the way from where I end up working.
- Zalika is apparently angry again. Teag brought it up and.. I don't know. I suppose I'm used to people sticking around for say, a month, and never hearing from them again. I'll leave this to him to fix, and he didn't seem too upset over the idea. Long term friendship that doesn't end in extremely bloody messes aren't really my thing, as far as history shows.

Actually started to list the people I've spent time with and then just had run off in the past year- didn't get very far into it, but I think that's for the best. I really do seem to go through people oddly fast.

Been doing a lot of thinking, and ran into an Argent out on the airship. Obsessed with 'judgment day', but once you get past that he was very.. helpful. Figures, shortly after I joke with Teag about having so few prayer books, it looks like I'll be getting a decent number more. Something I'm.. working on, more or less. Will have to see.

I was supposed to be out and about today, but my head feels like I knocked it on something. ... I know I didn't, so that's a small comfort at least.

Last day or two have been... odd. I don't know. Quite glad there aren't any festivals or celebrations for a while. Thankfully managed to sneak off from the gathering down in Sen'jin. ... Then again, even if someone had asked why I was leaving, it wouldn't have mattered much. Because I could, because I was annoyed, blah blah blah blah blah. I wonder how people would make their assumptions if I wasn't an elf. Maybe they'd have to put some actual thought into it. If they even can.

Yearly festivals blur together when you're almost a hundred and forty anyway. Teag cheered me up plenty afterwards, so it really doesn't matter.

Had some trouble in Booty Bay, and I won't pretend to know who started that. Was a bit surprised at Jeria being so upset about it, really. Can't watch? Back when I lived in Silvermoon, groups of Alliance would come by and get cut down all the time. What sort of soldier winces at bloodshed?

Eh. Need to talk to her, but not about that.

... Sometime, anyway. Going to try and go back sleep.